What I Live For
"The journey is the destination." --"Physical Phil" from October Road, Pilot The easy answer is: MY KIDS. Those two little boys whose burps and farts, cries and screeches - whose very presence - have filled up my world for more than ten years now. Elizabeth Stone said that having children is like having your heart walking around outside of your body. For me, it feels more like two baby-shaped pieces of myself have been let loose into the world and two similarly-shaped holes left in my body. At first I could not bear to be away from them for more than a few minutes, then a few hours, and now I can handle even a few days . But if I think one of them is lost, or I am not absolutely certain of where they are - even for a few minutes - that old panic starts to surface and I feel the loss again in my body. The truth is, however, that living for them gets me into trouble. It leads to unrealistic expectations of behavior (mine and theirs) and a desire for appreci...